With so many thoughts and emotions I don’t even know where to start. Working in any new job is going to be difficult at first, not to mention adding the element of a new country, new culture, new language… pretty much, new everything. That being said, even with these certain difficulties to deal with I am so much more than excited for the next 10 months.
As for anticipation of my time and work abroad, well, I am hesitant to anticipate much of anything because as anyone who has traveled before can certainly attest to, what you least expect from your time abroad will probably happen, and you simply won’t be prepared for it. But that’s part of the fun of it all – preparing for everything imaginable and still coming up short but somehow making it work. There is only one thing I can be certain about from the time to come: I will be doing a lot of learning. Learning my way around New Delhi, learning Hindi, learning about Pravah, learning who my friends will be abroad, learning where my place is and what exactly I can contribute, and so much more. I also expect to learn more about myself, my life, and the world around me through this experience. It’s true that I’m going to India to work and contribute, but I’m sure I will be getting back just as much as (if not more than) I’m giving.
I am definitely ready and excited for the time to come but I can’t lie and say that I’m 100% completely happy with the prospect of the 10 month stay in India. Truthfully I am about 90% happy and 10% sad. The unfortunate side effect about an amazing experience like this is the fact that we must leave our loved ones and our comfortable place in our own little worlds. I’m going to miss the little things I completely take for granted right now like driving my car, drinking water from the faucet, calling a friend on a whim (without the consideration of a time difference), and so many other things. But more than those little things, I’m really going to miss the people I’m leaving behind on this trip. Friends and family are impossible to replace, but we can manage to deal with missing them through lengthy phone calls, Skype dates, and emails. The real heartache is leaving the person I’ll miss the most: my wonderful boyfriend. Sadly no phone call, regardless of how long or wonderful, can replace the warmth and joy that comes from a simple thing like a hug from the one you love.
But sometimes we must make small sacrifices in our lives if it means the chance to be a part of something big or to do something meaningful. This is one of those times for me. I’m leaving behind many things that I love and cherish, but with the hope that my time abroad will make some small impact on the world at large, my workplace, my co-workers, my friends back home, myself, or even a stranger on the street. Regardless of where it is felt, I’d like to think and hope that my contributions abroad will make some small (or large) difference in someone’s life.